Thursday, July 21, 2011

Ugly Cake


So, several years ago, I’m dating this guy and I fall in love.  It is unclear whether he has fallen with me.  At a certain point he just falls off the planet.  We were long distance at the time and I remember hitting one of those relationship walls that don’t hurt so much as simply stun.
I cannot stay in this if he doesn’t love me back.  Equally.
Otherwise, I’m just dumb, and my friends are having intense conversations over turkey wraps that include phrases like:  “a little worried about her” and “should I say something?”
So, I tell him about the wall –in more (or less?) poetic terms- preparing myself that he will stammer and back out of the whole thing.  But, by gosh, he starts fighting to stay in! 
However,
He wants to stay in without saying “I love you.”
I think if you are 17, you get a pass on the L word, but not when you’re 40.